To be needed.
When without, the uncontrollable feeling of loss, desire and need for them to be there. For every minute they're gone, your breath gets caught in your throat and it becomes increasingly more difficult to breathe. For every moment they're gone, they're running through your brain, old memories, old habits.
That unspeakable feeling of nostalgia. Where every time something reminds you of them, you don't know whether to smile or to cry - they're not there anymore, it won't happen again. You remember all the things they say. Every last promise, every last compliment, every last thing they liked about you. You wonder if they'd still like that about you, and you live, keeping that, hoping that they still would.
Towards that person, there is no other. There is no replacement. You're something so priceless and precious that they keep you in the palm of their hand, holding on tight, afraid that if they even so much as to loosen their grip for one moment you'll slip away through their fingers.
If you were so much as to leave. It's like the whole world becomes dim.
-Rei
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