Losing all these games is not helping my self-esteem...
Especially when the entire team bitches you out for one mistake when I could've pointed out 100+. Words do hurt, as much as people would like to believe they don't. Every day it's the same rage, the same bs and the same /ignore command.
There's pretty much nothing more I could've done. After every game I try to analyze and see what I could've done better but... sometimes my mind is blank.
That's the problem with team games. You're only as good as your worst player. That's why I played Starcraft a lot, you win or lose based on your own actions.
Maybe my arrogance in my skill in games is blinding me from being objective about myself? It's a definite possibility, as it would probably go unnoticed in my psyche. I know there's a lot I can still do to improve.
Anyways I think I spend wayyy too much time gaming. My game time is almost as much as school X_X not good. If I even cut that time in half I'll have saved like... 3 hours.
We'll see how this goes ^_^
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