There's so many things I feel like I can't say. It's not even just that, it's just I don't know how people think of me and as a result of that I'm hesitant to say a lot of things. I just feel like I already am not very close to really anyone except for some select people (like one select person...) sometimes. It doesn't matter how much effort I put into someone. It's always like that one "Treat others like how you want to be treated", but that never works. Not when no one cares and no one will care. It's really evident, really glaringly evident. I know people are always complaining about people being "annoying" or "stalkers" or "clingy" or whatever. But it just means at least they care about you and what you're doing, how you're doing. It's not even a bad thing, it's actually probably rather flattering.
Maybe the only reason why I think about it this way is because that's abnormal for me. Maybe to everyone else it's nothing special, not something that actually is worth mentioning or worth thinking about or being happy about. Maybe I'm the only stupid person that spends my time getting happy over nothing.
-Rei
Crossposted from my regular blog, because it's what's been on my mind lately. Haha. I'm dumb I know. Bite me. Labels: Rei |