Always try for yourself, because I know no one else fucking will. No one's going to try for you, so it's fine to stop being delusional in thinking they will. It's okay to stop being so fucking optimistic to make everyone around you feel okay, it's okay to stop being so nice once in a while.
The thing is is that, unless people actually think you're worth the effort or if they have to exact effort into you or else they won't receive anything back or if they're actually attracted to you as a person and not the things you do or the way you have to act for them to like you... It's only then that they'll try for you. Or else it's going to be all on your own.
Initiating conversation, carrying conversation, hitting them up. It'll always be you making them happy, they won't ever do anything for you or think about you at all. They'll just end up taking you for granted and you'll just end up being used.
On a side note. I really like the following song as of today. I've always liked the way it sounded, but the lyrics once I actually bothered to look them up are so relatable. I'm going through the sad love song phase if you can't tell.
As I walk down the street a dozen times,
I think of your gestures
Where are you, brightly smiling?
Now that you're part of my reality
It'd be good to you if I disappeared like dust
My Boy - Secret, 0330 - U-Kiss, Pledge - the GazettE... just to name a few
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