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Everytime. Every single fucking time. I'm sick of it. You put so much effort into people and then they tend to just drop you. They tell you things like you're biffles for iffles. But I guess that's why it doesn't make sense, because biffles for iffles don't mean a thing nowadays. It's just an acronym for something I wish would start being more. So. Fucking. Sick. Of. This. I'm sick of being dropped left and right. Fucking A. That's why the thing I hate the most is inconsistencies. Whether it's through what you say, the way you act, or how much effort is being put in. It just all. Gets.
D r o p p e d .
-Rei Labels: Rei |
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♥ 8:34 PM |
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My heart feels a little better now :) Labels: Jason |
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♥ 11:36 PM |
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OMG I HATE FEEDERS IN RANKED.
I DO SO WELL AND MY TEAM BLOWS
OHHHH MMMMMMMMYY GOSHHHHH
I AM DEFINITELY AT A 2K LEVEL
I HAVE DESTROYED PEOPLE THAT HAVE REACHED 2.1K
I RAPE MY LANE EVERYTIME
OUT CS, OUT KILL
HOW DOES ONE LOSE A 7-2-6 ANNIE WITH 50 CS ABOVE EVERYBODYYY
WHYYYYY
DS GKHNSDGH:LKA F:ASJ LASKFH :FHKLJ:Lk
/RANT
Sorry, I had to get that out or I'd EXPLODEEEE Labels: Jason |
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♥ 12:26 PM |
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Yup. People are defs inconsistent. Someone you think you can ALWAYS rely on, well you figure out that they're actually really inconsistent, as in their support for you is completely conditional. As in, if there's someone more important than you in the moment... they'll be gone in a second. That sucks. That sucks balls. Shitload of bull. I hate inconsistent people above all. Just say what you mean, mean what you say. Don't go forwards and back. When you say something, follow it through. Don't say mysterious things and don't follow up on it. Don't be retarded.
I will... I WILL RAGE.
-ReiLabels: Rei |
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♥ 10:57 PM |
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Maybe if I was honest from the start things would be different.
Do you ever think about our happiness years ago?
Hmm. I wonder what you're doing right now.
I wish you'd talk to me just once.
I want to know you again.
But I'm afraid. Fear.
Labels: Jason, Thoughts |
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♥ 11:20 PM |
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So apparently people actually read this stuff. O_________O
Oh well, at least people think my life is interesting ^_^
Maybe half-interesting is the better word since I'm sharing it.
Anyways I am recently reminded of an old quote
It's almost too accurate. There are some quotes you live by and there are some you live in.
"Plus ça change, plus c'est la même chose"
^why is the text black? ._.
^ Fixed it! :) ~
Labels: Jason, Thoughts |
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♥ 11:58 PM |
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There's so many things I feel like I can't say. It's not even just that, it's just I don't know how people think of me and as a result of that I'm hesitant to say a lot of things. I just feel like I already am not very close to really anyone except for some select people (like one select person...) sometimes. It doesn't matter how much effort I put into someone. It's always like that one "Treat others like how you want to be treated", but that never works. Not when no one cares and no one will care. It's really evident, really glaringly evident. I know people are always complaining about people being "annoying" or "stalkers" or "clingy" or whatever. But it just means at least they care about you and what you're doing, how you're doing. It's not even a bad thing, it's actually probably rather flattering.
Maybe the only reason why I think about it this way is because that's abnormal for me. Maybe to everyone else it's nothing special, not something that actually is worth mentioning or worth thinking about or being happy about. Maybe I'm the only stupid person that spends my time getting happy over nothing.
-Rei
Crossposted from my regular blog, because it's what's been on my mind lately. Haha. I'm dumb I know. Bite me. Labels: Rei |
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♥ 6:59 PM |
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There are a lot of things (both good and bad) that I want to say to a lot of people, but I'm too scared of what might happen afterwards.
I guess I'm an extreme introvert. I like to keep to myself sometimes. It gets to the point where I sometimes don't even want to talk to anyone anymore and just be alone. Usually I'll listen to music, play a game or read a book.
I don't exactly like who I am. There are a lot of things about people I don't like though. I like to think I have a high toleration limit but maybe it's not true. I get EXTREMELY annoyed at some people but I never tell them because arguing doesn't solve anything. I can't figure out if I need to be stronger, or people are just really weak.
Too many conflicting demands.
Labels: Jason, Rant, Thoughts |
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♥ 12:13 AM |
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Always try for yourself, because I know no one else fucking will. No one's going to try for you, so it's fine to stop being delusional in thinking they will. It's okay to stop being so fucking optimistic to make everyone around you feel okay, it's okay to stop being so nice once in a while.
The thing is is that, unless people actually think you're worth the effort or if they have to exact effort into you or else they won't receive anything back or if they're actually attracted to you as a person and not the things you do or the way you have to act for them to like you... It's only then that they'll try for you. Or else it's going to be all on your own.
Initiating conversation, carrying conversation, hitting them up. It'll always be you making them happy, they won't ever do anything for you or think about you at all. They'll just end up taking you for granted and you'll just end up being used.
On a side note. I really like the following song as of today. I've always liked the way it sounded, but the lyrics once I actually bothered to look them up are so relatable. I'm going through the sad love song phase if you can't tell.
As I walk down the street a dozen times,
I think of your gestures
Where are you, brightly smiling?
Now that you're part of my reality
It'd be good to you if I disappeared like dust
My Boy - Secret, 0330 - U-Kiss, Pledge - the GazettE... just to name a few
-Rei Labels: Rei |
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♥ 9:13 PM |
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Just when I was all excited to build my new computer my mobo defects. UGH And these days I'm so bored, two of my closest friends left for asialand Gaming is getting kinda boring too T____T I need to find some hobby. SIGHLabels: Jason, Rant |
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♥ 8:54 PM |
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Time to live, time to learn, time to love.
Time for all these things.
Time.
That's slowly ticking away.
Slipping past my fingers with each breath.
- Rei Labels: Rei |
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♥ 9:32 PM |
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I swear I'll never understand you That's fine though. maybe some things are better left a mystery maybe.
How do I get home? EVERYTHING REVOLVES AROUND ME ~ Pendulum
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♥ 8:54 PM |
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I need to learn to say no >.< I'm just dissapointing myself otherwise
But I hate dissapointing my friends too :| Too many things in life need to be balanced. It's hard to keep track of every scale. I need a vacation X________X
Here's to summer 2011 :) Labels: Jason, Thoughts |
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♥ 10:50 AM |
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You just happen to be something sacred to me, in the sense that if anyone said anything about you I would be angry. Legit. Whether it's true or not. I only remember the good and the happy. It's only thing I would want to remember.
Is this the so called "aftereffects" of love?
-ReiLabels: Rei |
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♥ 9:14 PM |
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During highschool, I made a lot of friends, but I also lost a lot. I guess it's all part of the high school experience.
Right now, I feel like I'm growing apart from a lot of people I don't want to grow apart from, but I don't know how to stop it.
It makes me really sad when I see someone in the hall that I once knew really well that I can't even look at anymore. Or when best friends suddenly become strangers. It's the worst feeling ever.
I wish I knew how to be a better friend.Labels: Friends, Jason, Thoughts |
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♥ 2:06 PM |
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I don't think so.
I make me move, I make me talk, I make me think.
They make you move, they make you talk, they make you think.
What happened to self expression? Self worth? Or self motivation?
I don't know what to think anymore.
- ReiLabels: Rei |
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♥ 8:00 AM |
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things are looking better now :o i feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulder after finals, things should definitely be a lot less stressful kinda dissapointed with my grades this year, but I can't change it. I'll work harder in the future. Can't wait for summer :)Labels: Jason, Thoughts |
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♥ 5:19 PM |
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