"Let's breathe the air once again."
Welcome to refreshed*. Enjoy your stay here :)
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After a while after things blow over, you start looking for something new, something better, something more worth your time. But in looking for that, you slowly figure out that what you had originally was good. What you had originally was something you love and loved.
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♥ 5:50 PM |
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I couldn't live without my music. Thank you so much for being there for me no matter what! I love you <3 Labels: Jason, Music |
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♥ 8:35 PM |
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Is it wrong to be someone completely different, try to be better so that others will love you or like you more?
More so. Is it wrong to want to be someone completely different and not yourself so you won't hate who you are anymore?
Is it wrong to sit and wait, without trying, to wait for love to find you?
:/ Confused.
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♥ 6:06 PM |
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It's funny how similar people's problems are, but how differently they react to them. How differently people turn out. Labels: Jason, Thoughts |
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♥ 2:48 PM |
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No response. Can you hear me? |
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It's never wrong to be nice. But it's never others' rightful expectation of you to be nice either. The thing is is that being a nice person, other people take advantage of you. But at the same time... It's all very like, you feel good because you want to be nice to that person. It's when someone abuses your love that it's that tipping point you can't let yourself go past.
Sometimes you give so much of yourself to someone who just doesn't care. And that just hurts. No matter how much you put in for that person they just take it for granted, come to you when they want, leave you when you really need them the most. The thing is is that they're inconsistent towards you and you feel no sort of security when you want to depend on them, no matter how much you love them.
It's the part where you give yourself away and you feel like something's missing yet that person doesn't give you anything back to fill it. Often I find myself looking for some sort of response. Some sign so I know that you care. Some sort of divine sign, something to tell me that I matter to you. Because no matter how much I do I know it's not something I can earn.
So it's not wrong to be nice. Because in the end it's the nice people that are truly loved by the people who can see what matters. It's the nice people that have the people whom are genuine. It's not just flirting, it's not just being courteous. It's friendship. It's love.
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♥ 9:00 PM |
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I used to think being nice to people would get other people to be nice back to me. Treat other the ways you wanted to be treated right? I think it started because my brother was really nice to me, we were never super close and we had our arguments, but he never beat me up or did things like you think a big bro would do to you. Sometimes he'd even give me candy, that always made me happy. So I went on with life thinking the world was a happy place. Innocent little me.
Then in eighth grade I had my first experience of actual love... and my first realization of being a "nice guy". Looking back, I should've dumped her after the first 6 months. So much bullshit during the winter/spring part. I tried being nice, tried everything really, but every time she would turn away. I loved her. I didn't feel like she did back. I still don't even understand what happened.
It's the same pattern with everyone save a couple of people who actually do reciprocate. As a Christian I've been taught values which I try very hard to apply to my normal life. I often pray in search for an answer, what am I doing wrong?
Is being nice overrated nowadays? Sometimes I feel like I'm cast off unless needed. Just a tool. I don't like this feeling. Labels: Jason |
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♥ 9:09 PM |
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Yaaaaaaaaaay. This is almost like a trade journal, but not really, cause anyone can read this. xD FAILSAUCE. So I guess it's not the same. o: Butbutbutbut! Trade journal reminds me of 7th grade - Freshman year. Where'd all that time go. Haha. I lost something important I guess in that. And I've been reminded day in and day out in it lately. It's like we're not even close anymore. It's like I'm a stranger or worse to you. Because at least you know you don't know a stranger and you shouldn't. But I know you.
I. Know. You.
What's upsetting is that it's no longer in present tense. Now it's like...
I knew you.
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♥ 6:16 PM |
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Blogging's somewhat of my hobby, next to gaming and drama watching, jrocking and doing other things. I love blogging. :) Mostly it's cause I'm committed to it. But I do it often, and do it almost daily and about random stuff. So I decided to make a blog with... JZ. o: Yes. Idk what he wants to be called yet, so let's just say that. Haha. Alright guys. I'm done for tonight. 12:07 am. And it's time to sleep... or do something useful. Love. <3
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♥ 10:08 PM |
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